I wrote this a few days ago and forgot to post it! But it was such a magical moment that I still have to post it!
Today was one of those days where I woke up…and just felt like it was gonna be an uneventful, boring day, but I was wrong! I decided to ride my bike to the beach in the afternoon, but before leaving, I was talking with my little bro. I really really wanted to leave because it was going to get cold and looked like it would start raining, but for once, I was enjoying the time I spent with him, so I let the moment continue. Well, when I finally left to ride to the beach, I just happened to arrive at just the right time to watch the sunset, as if all the events leading to this moment were supposed to happen anyways. It was so beautiful, I couldn’t take my eyes off of it! The cloudy sky had opened just enough, right where the sun was setting, above Catalina, and it created the perfect scene. So bright and orange and pink! I parked my bike against a wall that’s right past the bike path and sat in the sand, back against the wall, hands running through the soft earth, just STARING at the image in front of me. It made me feel so content and happy and appreciative of life and just everything idk it felt like I was supposed to be there and that I’m supposed to be here, in this life right now. I started crying tears of joy, I was just so thankful to be able to look at something so beautiful and I tried to meditate but my mind kept coming back to a strong feeling of gratefulness and I’d start to tear up again. Later, I started getting a weird feeling, almost like hallucinating, where I saw the sky as just a fake backdrop and I almost started to lose sight of reality. It was kinda scary, I couldn’t tell what was real and what was what my mind made up. I was getting confused with where the skyline ended and where the waterline began, it was trippy. I started to think of the upcoming 12/21/12 and pondering what will happen. I agree with many others that it’s just going to be the start of our world’s transition…it will be a good thing. Unfortunately tho, I feel as if some pretty crazy things will start to happen too, because we have messed up our world so much, that it’s going to take a “fall,” a “crash,” for it to “restart” itself. The key is to be welcoming, accepting, and therefore, prepared for whatever is meant to happen. Well it’s interesting to see how much my attitude and outlook has changed in just these past few days with school being over. I realize how much school sucked out of me and how I was distancing myself from all that I love and am appreciative of, so it’s nice to be able to grasp all of that again.
If you feel lost, disappointed, hesitant, or weak, return to yourself, to who you are, here and now.
And when you get there, you will discover yourself, like a lotus flower in full bloom, even in a muddy pond, beautiful and strong.❞
Masaru Emoto (via wethinkwedream)
my life the past week (longest post in the world btw):
dis old-ass picture
what the…I haven’t been on in about a month, that’s how busy and stressed I’ve been o_o THANK GAIA IT WAS MY LAST WEEK OF THE SEMESTER OMG. Hardest semester ever, I don’t even know why, I was just so busy all the time and never had any time for my friends, and sadly, for myself. Oh, that was so hard to deal with. But here’s how my last few weeks have gone…if I can even remember.
yeaaa that’s pretty much all that’s happened in the last MONTH. How sad. Next semester shall be a lot easier. I applied to 4 schools for next Fall and I reallyyy hope I get in to Humboldt State for Environmental Resource Engineering :) Hope it’s been worth it to work my ass off in school my entire life. I just always seem to push myself a little too hard…
I love you times infinity forever and ever until the end of time<3
Aaaand I am no longer enjoying this day. At all. No matter what.
this may possibly be my absolute fave pics of james franco <3_<3
❝ Your light is seen. Your heart is known. Your soul is cherished by more people than you might imagine. If you knew how many others have been touched in wonderful ways by you, you would be astonished. If you knew how many people feel so much for you, you would be shocked. You are far more wonderful than you think you are. Rest with that. Rest easy with that. Breathe again. You are doing fine. More than fine. Better than fine. You’re doing great. So relax. And love yourself today. ❞
Neale Donald Walsch
Weeee. Long post ‘cause I haven’t been on for so long!